How Awesome It Is To Be In the Fire!

“How great are His signs, how mighty are His wonders!
His kingdom is an eternal kingdom; His dominion endures from generation to generation.” ~ Daniel 4:3

Every time I write something on this blog I feel like I am in some sort of place of crisis or of learning. And when I thought about writing over the past year I felt as if everyone was tired of the same old song and dance. Woe is me. . . Now I am better! So I stopped writing. My life is a roller coaster. And I didn’t feel as though this blog was contributing to much more than stroking my ego, licking my wounds, a place for me to hear nice things from people. Is that right. . .

Last week I suppose my doctor read my blog because she said I should start writing again. Funny!?! I didn’t even know she read my blog. My first response to her was, I am not writing because I am focusing on my book. It wasn’t untrue. I am doing that. And I just wasn’t writing my blog anymore. But the thing is, maybe now I have more to say. Maybe now is the time to start writing again in every way.

Tears In My Eyes

Verse of the Day:
“…let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 5:16

This last month and a half has kicked me in the gut.  Period.  But the last week has really been the most daunting, yet beautiful.  Funny how that works out sometimes.   The week following Easter I am finding joy in all my sorrow.

For those of you closest to me you know I have been dealing with a personal battle, one that I won’t share… but now I am facing another physical battle.  I went to the cardiologist last week… these dang appointments… I should just stop going.  I have been saying it for years.  Haha! I went because I feel like crap again… well I mean my heart feels like someone is squeezing all the juice out of it every 10 it 15 minutes.  And then I am fine… and then it happens again…  This my dear friends is called a PVC, or my pacemaker is pacing my ventricle.  I only have one so it’s that one… LOL! Basically it feels awful and I want to rip the thing right out of my body, but I can’t because my atrium no longer beats at all without it… I mean at all… nothin’… GREAT!!

Aches and Pains

Verse of the Day:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5

Today has been a tough day. I am exhausted, my body is sore and I can’t seem to shake this dizziness and headache. No to mention an out of control cough and chest pain I can’t seem to kick, and this weird heart beat… Blah, blah, blah… poor me, right?! That’s what I think! I mean working moms probably feel this way everyday… jeez, get over it already!

Weekly Photo Challenge: Regret

Verse of the Day:
That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. – 2 Corinthians 12:10

NO REGRETS!

Normally I would not share such a scandalous dorky silly picture of myself with the Internet world… however the WordPress Weekly Photo topic intrigued me. In this picture I am wearing my husband Ryan’s pajama pants. We were in a hotel room in Rochester, MN.

Paleo Spaghetti with Meat Sauce

So today I was super hungry, but my fridge was empty… But my freezer was hiding a treasure. Buffalo meat sauce that I made the month! Sweet! My next thought was… What am I going to do with this sauce? Looking around the kitchen what do my little eyes spy… A spaghetti squash! Oh yeah baby… I am having spaghetti with meat sauce for lunch! All I had to do was heat up the sauce on the stove and cook the squash in the oven… Easy.

Dear Diary – I am getting a shiny new valve

Verse of the Day:
“Therefore, since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because whoever suffers in the body is done with sin. As a result, they do not live the rest of their earthly lives for evil human desire, but rather for the will of God.” – 1 Peter 4:1-2

This post is an entry from my diary. It is ramblings of how I was feeling 24 hours before my heart surgery and the weeks following. I am sharing this because I have been emailed by several people recently who are facing similar surgeries. It is not an easy path. It is scary, a very difficult. I hope it helps to hear my point of view. May God bless those going through tough times.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Peaceful

Verse of the Day:
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. – Romans 15:13

This is a photo of Ramsey Ranch ranch. It is no longer in our family, but being there always brought me a sense of peace. I love being outside and enjoying the beauty of nature because I feel closer to God somehow. Whether on a ranch or on the ocean my spirit always sores with joy and relaxation. The ranch brought so much fun, happiness, and love to our lives. It will always have a place in my heart.

Ratatouille Stew – The Paleo Way

I love Ratatouille! Fresh veggies cooked into a stew… Oh it is so yummy… It warms me up! Body and soul! When making this dish I used all organic produce and products, right down to the herbs. This stew is very good for winter weather and the ingredients are in season right now. I picked up all my produce from my local Co-Op Rawfully Organic.

Do You REALLY Believe?

Verse of the Day:

“I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things?” – John 3:12

First of all, Happy New Year! I know I have been away for a while.  The cold/flu virus really hit me and I have been sipping hot tea with honey, sucking on cough drops and sleeping a lot. It hit me the day after Christmas. With my heart I have to hit the antibiotics at the first sign of infection and my immune system isn’t always up to snuff. So it’s been quiet around here. My husband and I rang in the New Year with Ryan Seacrest and Dick Clark on the couch and let me tell you, that was the most boring New Years Eve EVER! We will have to pull it together next year…

Yesterday I Was The Grinch!

Verse of the Day:
The Lord is good to all, 
And His tender mercies are over 
all His works.  - Psalm 145:9

Yesterday I was the Grinch! With a capitol GRINCH! I did not feel good at all on Wednesday. Nothing was particularly wrong with me but my chest hurt, I was exhausted, couldn’t catch my breath and and pacemaker kept jacking me up. This is what happens sometimes in my life.